You Ain't Seen My Final Form Yet

by Ill-Vain, Cory Johnson

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You Ain't Seen My Final Form Yet.
Save Spot. Slay Boss. Back to pro-black shit.


released May 17, 2017

Produced by Cory Johnson. Written and performed by Ill-Vain (Tim Anderson)




ILL-Vain Yokosuka, Japan

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Track Name: (Not My) Final Form
Born to fight, piloting a mech like Evagelion/
Woke up in the body of a young black American/
Dissonance Between the World and Me like Ta-Nehisi/
Innocence ain't my priority so yall can eat me/
Arrogance is what they call me when my head ain't low enough/
Humble's what they call me when I tell the world I 've given up/
I'm hearing whispers that this life is cruel and evanescent/
But the oppression be the fuel to my incandescence/
Call it paranoia but I think its Kafka-esque/
how the worst fate targets who we call the best/
The Universe is biased and it tortures who I deem a threat/
When it comes to me, I ain't whimpering--I BEAT MY CHEST!/
...ILL-Vain kill 'em with the common sense/
Still can't penetrate my obstinance/
Broke, deliverying opulence/
Stoked they still ain't boxed me in/
Ya'll know I go straight savage/
Algernon my way through the labyrinth/
Although we already know that there ain't no goal--we just live for the action/
No sweat/ just a whole lotta laughin'/
Some stress but a whole lot passion/
Don't fret about the views of the factions/
Just worry bout you and ya path son/
Mada fact I dribble off track some/
Dabble in a little this and that some/
Cause we swimmin' in an endless vacuum/
And I know they'll call me back soon/
So I ain't lookin for absolute truth/
a ghost in the sky or a mountain of loot/
a place to call home or a fountain of youth/
I look in the mirror--I'm waitin' on YOU/
Before they prey on you...I pray to you/
What they gon' do...when WE come through?/
I be on my own plane/ deep within my own brain/
In here there is no shame/ enter and you'll learn pain/
UGH! And don't you ever forget! ......YOU AINT SEEN MY FINAL FORM YET!

I said...

Track Name: Me AF ft J-Bush
(ILL-Vain)From now on I'm rejectin all of your shit/
Long overdue--never once adored it/
Yeah I'm bout to focus on my own/
If it ain't about US imma leave that shit alone/
Fuck yo films and fuck yo songs/
Petty ass me like ALL YEAR LONG/
I'm just tryna be free like Andy Dufrense/
But when I get out, Imma be so clean/
Be so wise. That kid's so mean/
But when its all done imma be yo king/
Man fuck yo king--imma be yo god/
and swear to myself imma beat all odds/
Break these bars up in my dome/
Crush this world and build my own/
Beat your best then beat the rest/
...I'm just tryna be me af/
I'm just tryna be myself/
Ripped yo script and built my dream/
Fuck yo football/basketball team/
bible thumpin' nothin not shit 'round me/
Coconut Oil Scented pick 'round me/
Imma tell you what NOBODY told me/
I rule everything that I see/
I rule everything that I see/
I rule everything that I see/
I rule everything that I see/
I rule everything that I see/
Pretty chill dude/
Cynical world view/
And the world gon' rue/
the shit that they did to me/
I be the antithesis of all entities/
tryna shame me for the power I bring with me/

From now on I believe in all the fake shit/
gained sight to the code in the matrix/
Yeah--I got new world view/
and the mirror seein' more than the victim of a slave ship/
I see beyond a face of a man/
I'm amazed cause I'm lookin at the god within/
I arrived at the point where my hips not joint/
to the world so I don't identify with being atheist/
Yeah--and that's settin' me free/
cause not believing in god's/
Not believing in me/
I grind/
Lettin' light shine/ from the heart/
so I never take the mark of the beast/
And I'll...Never take another L/
Even though the world tellin' me I'm gonna fail/
Well, its all good cause I love self/
And to be honest with ya/
There ain't really nothin' else/
I guess I'm feelin the vibe feelin the vibe/
vibratin' high as fuck/ cause I follow up/
with each rhyme/
these are the times/
look at the Signs/
No M. Night Shymalan/
Cause this plot goin' down light a cannon ball/
And each line got the whole world fannin' off/
Cause it's hot like sand on Panama/
Beach/, cause I just reach/
Through every obstacle--searchin' for peace/
Follow my lead/ by being yourself/
cause I couldn't be them/
I could only be me/ (yeah, yeah)/
AF/ Way left/
Like the hand on my heart in my chest/
I take this vow to renew this pledge/
and submit to become/
God in the flesh/ Oh yes, yes/


Tea tree in my afro/
Green tea in my glass tho/
That's Japanese in my raps, yo/
Gundam Seed on my hard drive/
Marvin Gaye when I part thighs/
So that's freakmode at midnight/
and anime by "Sunrise"/
I used to be a self-hatin' negro/
hyper criticism of my people/
but I left the old me in a deep Hole/
and the new me is piloting the Big O/
And I'm stepping on my captors/
castin' black magic/
Save spot, slay boss--back to problack shit/
SS Melanin quick, No practice/
Me AF get ki blasted/
Wow/ oh shit oh man/
Young black boy got a grip. God damn!/
Wasn't 'posed to take shit but commands/
And they 'bout to take it all. Take that. No hands/
Take that take that/ P.Diddy wit it/
green herb in the back/
Feel a philly with it/
Blow it out too loud so the city feel it/
Now I'm floatin' in the clouds--won't land/
Gave up on the life of the havenots/
But ain't gotta sell dope by the crack spot/
Yeah, I found the key to the padlock/
and gained self worth without actin' like a mascot/
Black God that's me. Dread loc hat free/
Flyin' through the city like a ghost/
headed to the top/ from the bottom/
and I'd never thought I'd find em/
So gon' give that young man a toast/ Go.
Track Name: Zenkai Power
It all started with my first dose of pain/
Fell off my bike, filled my shirt up with stains/
Mouth full of blood, parents showed me love/
Told me I was strong for the way I maintained/
Told me life gets worse its a very grave game/
But what don't kill you makes great change/
A decade and a half came and it passed/
Now I'm standin' in the grass at my father's grave like/
"Damn this is only the beginnin?/
I'd rather end it now instead of copin with these feelins/
Get attached; tell everybody bye/
If you make it even longer you watch everybody die."/
Can I do it? I think I can! Full throttle! Super Saiyan/
So when I'm near death but don't die, I come back stronger than ever--that's Zenkai!"

でてこいとびきり ZENKA POWER!
When they all die, when the money gone
When I fail it all/ When I stand alone/

I come back from dark places with the most light when I shine I turn faces/
During plight still fight power level raises/ Zenkai! We survive through the worst cases/
So when an MC rips off my sickest flow/
I regenerate like the arm of piccolo/ Zenkai, if you don't know what it is/ it's what kept me on the edge without jumpin' off the bridge/
Think of what it'd do for your kids!/
A little optimism could increase a will to live/
I spit that Gohan-pops-died-and-so-on-birds-in-his-eye-and-then-he-cries-and-goes-blonde/
So mad cause I'm rare and they can't be me/
Solar Flare to the haters cause they can't see me/
Confidence is my ultimate attack/
Not even king kai can prepare you for that!/


When a Saiyan is half dead/
And ain't got enough to live/
Zenkai Power's the process/
That makes him get up again/
In the real world we ain't got that/
That's why I picked up the pen/
Cause happiness is the object/
So get the fuck up and live!/

If suicide's at an all time high...then I gotta raise my power level higher/
We all know its a cold world!...that's why I gotta spit that fire/
So when you're knocked out the sky...tell em that you're flying down!/
And don't you ever forget! leave a crater when you hit the ground!/
Track Name: Johan
it started off a whisper, turned into a holler
I held it in at ease but my grip began to falter/
Gnawing on the innards of my center unbothered/
I tried to pray to god but it led me from the alter/
I cried about the fury and the strife/
But the world brushed it off as another part of life/
The demon inside was with me through the plight/
I trust it/ I relaxed and let em have another bite/ fuck it/
Plus it/ promised me incredible strength/ motivated me to basically stay on the defense/
All approaching objects/ be targets/
Claiming friendship will leave you dead and discarded/
And I don`t give a fuck about a brother or an ally/
All of yall the same if you ain`t cutting through this barbwire/
Keepin me contained/ trapped to this behemoth/
Whose misanthropic views I am starting to agree with/

It’s a mother fuckin wonder why I never thought to plunder back/
Monster in me bigger now plottin on our next attack/
I don`t give a fuck what you label me or see me as/
All of ya hatred's become an aphrodisiac/
Deem me as "defiant"/ a "demon on a ragin` path"/
We all know you`ve always had an ache to blast/
Free at last aint a phrase that i stated/
After being weak, docile and sedated/
Played with fire /Made ya bed
You still don`t get where the chaos bred from/
Bread crumbs… leading right back to yall/
The sole reason ya empire`s bout to fall
Cause the back that you built it all on/
bout to stand the fuck up with its sword all drawn/
No yawn cause the monster don`t sleep/
The power`s gohan but the mind Johan/
Track Name: Stray Bullet
Sunlight side swipes my sleepin'/
"God damn it imma love this weekend!"/
Tea tree coconut just seep in/
High off self-love--I breathe in/
No foes/ just pros I'm con-less/
Dispel my woes when prompted/
Adjust my volume promptly/
No thoughts--just shakin' and vibin/
How often do you think about the warmth of a coffin/
Stray bullets from a war uninvolved in?/
What caused them?/
I'm coughin/
All I see is my mama's missed calls/
Rear view shows the past few broads/
lovin' me while I just looked on/
Wonder how this life moves on/

My voice echoes to nowhere/
My dreams disperse to thin air/
All laughs I caused will bring tears/
My name alone will be spared/
All time spent on me vanquished/
Every birthday, Christmas, banquet/
Every lesson I learned proved worthless/
Cause my body goin' in to earth quick/
This biochemical mail, made of infinitesimal cells/
DNA strands, every word that I said/
All wiped away by a tiny piece of lead/
NAH--ain't a heaven for a G/
An A or a B/ Or a C for that matter/
And if there's a "plan" for my brains to get splattered/
I curse all creators till I am but matter--I'm GONE!/

This body is not a shell...
Track Name: ILL-Vain feature ApeX - Damn Shame ft ApeX
(ILL-Vain)Damn shame you could never witness/
Ya boy's plight turned flight/ off to new beginnings/
I had my head down often back when you were living/
Bc that chemical imbalance gave me skewered visions/
Now i see the power in me you mythologized/
I wrote you off cause i was lost and I apologize/
I got crew world wide/ lady by my side/
And the place I reside/ land of Sun Rise/
I know it sounds odd but i waved them waves bye/
Along with the faith/ replaced with good vibes/
But i still listen to my inner intuitions/
Invokin you when im facing tough decisions/
I channel you when right and wrong identical/
Storm clouds pour moonlight or when I need a mircale/
I just keep mind who i look like in mirror/you/
Damn shame youll never see what I was geared to do/

Got a lady with ethereal smiles… damn shame you won't be around/
Every demon from the past be inferior now/ damn shame you won't be around/
my clinical depression far behind by miles/
Living in japan aint so mystical now/
Still cynical as fuck but the usual clown/

I feel like I'm stubborn as ever/
And Imma be that way if its for worst or for better/
For years I kept a smile hopin to keep it together/
But all that fake emotion did was keep me tethered/
To the ground and on a chain ain't no way that a bird should live/
So imma spread my wings feel like I'm leaving the earth again/
And I don't mean it like how I used to get high/
More like how you would throw me up and tell me reach for the sky/
Mama told you not to drop me you ain't do that shit once/
All your consistence i was given, now im livin it up/
Remember in the hospital when you didnt get up/
The time you found me in my dreams and told me never give up/
so I didn't and now I'm feelin' like nothin can sweat me/
And if I doubt it I remember the words that you left me/
So in truth I keep it poppin' confessions confetti/
And even though you went to heaven you'll never forget me/

I'm still kneeling at the thrown when I'm back in town/
(damn shame you ain't been around)
Ya grandson becomin' a genius you can see that now/
(damn shame you ain't been around)
They tell me I'm like you every day and I don't believe it/
but when them emotions is steamin' yo I swear I can see it/
So when they ask you who the king is I'm gon show 'em the crown/
(Damn Shame you ain't been around)
Track Name: SST
From the moment i seen't it
I knew that i could achieve it
I closed my eyes and stopped breathin
Opened my mouth, started screamin/
Soon enough i got bored of it/
No sign of metamorphosis,/
vapor leaks from my pores n shit,/
Or that aura shit/
Course I did/
i bet/ you prolly did too/
Super Saiyan 1 or was it double S 2?/
The imagery still sticks to me/ but really what does it mean/
What's this yearning/ for transforming into something pristine/
Somethin greater than I/
Yet something buried inside/
Somethin callin for me/ to just ascend to the sky/
But the voice is but an echo from the back of cave/
Barricaded by my worries, faults, fears and self hate/
My real state which I crave is prolly fadin away/
In my effort to appease all the peers in my day/
Maybe the path to goin TRILL aint a journey afar/
Its a journey of discoverin the trill that you are/

Let me tell you bout a secret technique/
A training process that is trully unique/
Channel all energy to the person you be/
Self-Love is the key pushin' you to your peak/
Transform----go SST!
Transform---GO SST!

I shouldve known they weren't friends of mine/
I let em chain me down and keep ya man confined/
I let the words of another change ya mans design/
As if ya man should be ashamed of being damn divine/
So that demon fox seal is off/
I wont yield or halt/
Til the deity in me has wrought/
But honestly I could only hold me at fault/
I had the key, gave it up and let em lock the vault/
So I unlearned the lessons and the reason, selfdetestin', the deceiving and aggression that them demons taught/
And I retrieved the blessings and lessons of my brethren all components of my essence i believed were lost/
My iller state is there/ in my ego like a lair/i could reach it if I dare/penetrate these walls/
And shed layer after layer after layer after layer after layer after layer like matroshyka dolls/ and transform/


Beast mode and now i flow like Leviathan
You in deep shit if its you a I feast my eyes upon
Off sight alone, foes babble on--quick, fold, fall, Babylon/
I'm not the one to tattle on/
Gon' leave them words alone/
Quit it...stop it/
I see what's in ya pocket/
Gon' head...Pop it/
But bullets can't tarnish the embodiment of knowledge/
I come back resurrected--7Dragonballs provided/
I don't let the universe limit my options to Red or Blue Pill
in the hands of Bill Cosby/
I'm alright with the hard life--why bother?/
Ya'll can take a long hike in all whites like Oscars/
Students never seen a teacher like me come through/
lining up to see that line up like Bonnaroo/
My class has mo' laughs than black BBQs/
That's education with ILL's sick point of view/